I Tweeted Him “I Like Him” and then it’s Gone

Oh hi, I’d been pretty weird or insane recently, possibly because of too much exhaustion at work. Believe me or not, I’ve been pretty ambiguous lately and I even wonder if December hates me big time but nonetheless, I’m so thankful with my works despite of so many backslash on my mental state and physical health.

However, I wasn’t here to rant about my work, I’ve been doing good I guess despite of that guy resigning few weeks ago. But definitely I’m not really that motivated or inspired but of course, I shouldn’t rely my mood on other people’s existence. That’s something that I should’ve learnt in my 26 years of existence, or so I thought.

Anyway, yesterday I’ve been on a rampage for so many confusing reasons and my co-worker/close friend dared me to do something peculiar and I said I’ll confess how I truly felt to Melvin despite of that rather ‘normal’ guy resigning already. So my close friend whom I shall refer with the name “Dyosa” dared me if I could tell Melvin about how I felt which seriously had been on my mind for all this time. I’ve even planned to tell him about this during his last day at work but I couldn’t find the timing or maybe, it’s just me being obnoxiously weird or shy once again. So Dyosa, eventually said that my confession may be rather normal as she thought that Melvin already knew about how I felt which I believed to be true somehow. ‘Saaary guys, I’m just quite flirty, seriously or possibly. So, I actually tweeted him that I like him all this time, then after few minutes I opened my Instagram and saw him posted a new picture which I really find adorable. Then, shockt, I checked the comment section and saw his girl gave a response and I was like, “Shit, I felt stupid tweeting him that I like him” and then I went to Twitter looking for that tweet in order to delete it. For some unknown reason, I couldn’t find it. I actually can’t find it, and so I calm down and just ignore it, if he’ll give a response I’ll accept whatever it is though I am expecting him to reply a “I know right”. Haha. 

Then, the next morning I saw my Twitter newsfeed and saw that he did gave a reply. At first, I thought it’s pretty funny, and just a very ordinary answer from him. Until I realized moments later that his reply is actually referring to a different conversation between the two of us. That’s the time that the a theory sink in to my head. What if I only type that confession and never actually posted it. Dang, I am both happy and sad for some unknown reason. But since I am an annoying bastard, I replied to him stated “Oh hey, I actually tweeted you a message but I couldn’t find it”. Something stupid just to caught his attention possibly. 

Anyway, I’m done with this rant and hope you guys wouldn’t find me creepy but seriously I am. Maybe, I have to finally accept the fact that I have a heavy dosage of oxymoron or so I thought. Yeah, that maybe the case. And so, good night guys though it’s actually 12:18 am already so I shall also say good morning. 

My Not So Random Exhaustion at Work!

Image result for rantsIs there anything that could be more wonderful than being the queen bee at your workplace? Obviously, there is (smirking devilishly). In the past few months, I’d been on a random mood of being exhausted, motivated, effing inspired, dedicated, annoyed, and lots of neurons going haywire at my current work. It doesn’t necessarily mean that I am totally enjoying this or cursing my situation here but am sure is glad and thankful for having this kind of disastrously confusing entertaining moments in here. Yeah, it’s quite hard to explain this but one thing is sure, I am happy here despite of my not so pleasant impulsive remarks most of the time as I, my usual self had been on a pretty rampage of perfectionism all this time and bursting out my frustrations with my co-workers has been a bad habit of mine. Wait, this is just so me since in my heydays at college. Nonetheless, one thing is important I still have to keep on my effing mind that I am grateful for my current jobs despite of all the headaches, and heartaches (smirk) that I’d been through here.

Image result for work rant memeWhat I enjoyed here? It’s my work, I felt like a rampaging goddess on fire when my neurons are working excessively at its best and trying to bring out the weird introvert in me to face this hilarious social world. You definitely have to overcome your introvert self if you’re working in the hospitality industry, right? Multi-tasking, such a fun word to say but definitely nerve-wracking if you’re finally into it. So, I’ve been originally assigned as the reservation agent here, I’m seriously proud though since I’d been a part of the pioneer group of the best hotel-resort in the province of Capiz. Yes, my dear readers I’m a Capiznon, but thou shall not worry I ain’t an Aswang (haha, pun intended). Back to the topic, I am also a little bit arrogant as I go beyond my normal limit and did front desk jobs. In fact, this had been a great training ground for me to hide my nonchalant anti-social side (I don’t have plan of killing it) and I am somehow glad that slowly, I found myself changing for a better. Though, there are instances that people still find me creepy. Though I wouldn’t go deeper with this topic as this may trigger some of the stuffs that I despise, it’s just about humans anyway.

Yet, what I hate here? Nothing serious to be honest although I have the tendency to be impulsive as my blood easily goes wild and somehow boil up so fast. Though this place is making me a zombie, as if I hadn’t been a zombie for ages haha. Here we go, humans? Yes, I definitely have tons of problems with humans here because bitchy side is such a witty that I have the problem dealing with most people’s inferiority here. However, I believe this is just normal in any workplace and I should’ve just learn to live with it gracefully.

So, what’s the point of my rants here? Nothing special at all. It just happened to be Sunday morning and I am on the shift that I seriously hate the most, am not a morning person for a fucking hell sake, my eyes gonna fall off soon. Now, you should know what’s my shift, haha. I’m quite hungry too but I’m all alone here for the next 3 hours, kinda sucks but it should be fine. Though, I felt like I’ll gonna feed these effing humans in here, haha, wishing’s Melvin here, but this whole week, our schedule had been pretty rough. Nonetheless, though stupid mannerism of his should be enough to light up my day.  So please inspire me as this workplace kinda giving me a messy hell (don’t take it literally guys, shall my boss ended up reading this someday!) haha.

Have a great day bitches, and yes, tomorrow is my off. I shall spend the entire fucking day off watching anime, as if I have any other thing to do. Now, you should know what kind of boring life I led. This work is fun so I shall be dare to be exciting too, I guess. ^^

Collection of Relatable Online Rants

Originally, I was planning to make a post about a collection of jokes or some cheesy quotes. Eventually, I dropped the idea and ended up looking for rants like this as I, myself always post stuffs like this on my Tumblr account and I really find it amusing and hilarious reading things like this. So, I hope that you guys may lose in vibes of these awkward and somehow relatable rants that I’d gather from the web.

I’m not afraid of commitment, I’m afraid having to share my food with someone.

I’m going through this phase called fucking everything.

I’d rather steal your snacks than your man.

I’m just going to settle for the fact that the most intimate relationship that I could ever have with another human being is a couple of hours in a dingy motel room.

People need to realize that there are days when you’re not in the mood to talk or interact with anyone.

One day you’ll realize what you lost and I hope it rips you apart.

Anyone who needs a relationship at all times, needs to re-evaluate their life. Being independent and strong is sexy. Being able to carry yourself and not depend on a relationship is something to pride yourself on. Being a beg is disgusting. I’m not talking about social aspects, everyone needs to socialize, I’m talking about those people who get relationship after relationship because they depend on it. Sad reality.

If you’re interested in someone, why would you want to encourage others to flirt with you/admit how they feel for you/simply give you that sort of attention. Too many people do this when at the same time, trying to form a relationship. I will never understand the logic.

I’d much rather have one great person to talk to every night than have several pointless conversations with temporary people.

We pretend a lot. Most of our times, I guess. Well it kind of feels right when you’re there, but the aftershock it feels you’re not there and shouldn’t have. I don’t know about you guys, but I’ve done this and trust me, it’s never worth to pretend and hide feelings.

Famous or not, we all receive crap from someone and apparently we also do give crap. Regardless of the status, guys this world isn’t perfect. We all have our villains in our life and it is our very role to play with it.

~~To be continue~~