Ako’y nangungusap na sana ay dinggin ang mga tahimik na panaghoy ng aking damdamin.

And my emotions couldn’t be more describe any better than the following selected song lyrics from SILA by SUD.

Di ka man bago sa paningin
Palihim kang nasa yakap ko’t lambing
Sa bawat pagtago
Di mapigilan ang bigkas ng damdamin

 

Walang sagot sa tanong
Kung bakit ka mahalaga
Walang papantay sa’yo
Walang sagot sa tanong
Kung bakit ka mahalaga
Walang papantay sa’yo

 

Walang papantay sa’yo
Maging sino man sila
Ikaw ang araw sa tag-ulan
At sa maulap kong umaga

 

Soundtrack of the Day – Sila by SUD and that “WALANG SAGOT SA TANONG KUNG BAKIT KA MAHALAGA” phrase

So, as much as I had been depressed this past few weeks there’s one song that keeps on running on my mind for no specific reason. Maybe it’s just the beat, the melody or the melancholic feeling in the air. Nonetheless, I am falling in love with this Tagalog song titled SILA by SUD especially with its line, “WALANG SAGOT SA TANONG KUNG BAKIT KA MAHALAGA”. 

Specifically, it’s the phrase that really matters to me as it actually reflect on how vague and drowning my current emotional state is. I dunno but I felt like suffocating for so many unclear reasons when I am trying to look at things that connects me to you. At work, at my alone moments, and almost everything that I have spare time to think about you. 

WALANG SAGOT SA TANONG KUNG BAKIT KA MAHALAGA –

Maybe this simply refers to you Falcis boy, but for now I also want to believe that I should address this to myself as I wish I could be more selfish and invest some more effort and time on protecting myself, my emotions and insanity. Nonetheless, I’m quite thankful for a lot of things because I met you. 

I think I’d gotten any better, at the age of 26 i’m still not smarter that i used to several years ago. Nevertheless, I hope and supposed that this shall be that last time that I’ll fall for the wrong person and possibly the last time that I’ll let my emotion ruined a part of me mentally, emotionally, and psychologically. 

Quotes of the Day – Oct. 27, 2018 and I felt like fucking unappreciated

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Just another random rant because I felt like fucking unappreciated in so many aspects. And my heart just can’t take it anymore at the moment. I had helped my only inspiration / infatuation at work to write his resignation letter knowing that I’ll be fucking lonely again and effing unmotivated. I also felt like an empty cup not wanting to socialize with anyone as they seriously won’t understand anything at all anyway. I’m so fucking tired of faking this smile and facade. I’m so exhausted of life but I need to keep on living for those tiny fragments of my dreams still giving me lights and I still have to support my family in any way I can.